December 3, 2019
I was laughing a lot today. What was I laughing about? Things that I was thinking about that were so ridiculous that I couldn't stop laughing. True things that should be impossible but actually happened and coincidences that couldn't be anything but a setup and staged. We're they? I may never know. Fact is that those things that I couldn't get out of my mind made me laugh uncontrollably for extended periods of time.
Some noticed but none asked what I was laughing about. Good thing they didn't because most of those things would take a considerable amount of explaining to get them to understand the humor of them. At least nobody thought that I was laughing at them personally. That has happened before and what an uncomfortable situation that is.
Someone did make the comment that I seemed "super happy" and suddenly the buzz of all that laughter drained out of me in an instant. I immediately thought wow, you know I laughed a lot but I was laughing at something humorous, I wasn't gloating in some sort of happiness stupor. The laughter made me feel good, sure, but was it truly happiness? I think not. Maybe it was a mental escape, like a drug to alleviate pain.
That did though give me a moment of genius. Happiness and laughter aren't always the one and same. You can laugh but in the end you might not be happy.
There's a time in every man's life when has to make tough choices.