April 9, 2009
"sheye" wrote: Not sure what you mean by that statement mael,because i really don't think my problem is loniless, i think its just sadness ,mixed in with alot of other emotions, over a lot of differnet things that I'm trying to sort out.
* Something like the Sword of Damacles - type scenario. ie - Everything looks all right, but disaster is an unpredictable moment away at the best of times and the whole lot goes feet-up with any wrong moves. - A balancing act with a dark abbys on either side. - If I want to make an argument and mess things up I could do it in any number of easy ways. - Especially if I was drinking.
I know that sounds like a mixed up woman kind of thing to say,but i don't even understand it myself. It seems like such a crazy mixed up world, with a lot of stress building up on so many people for so many different reasons....and quite frankly at times I just want out.
* I'm right with you there. And I have once made a serious effort in that department. I am now comfortable with the idea that the timing of my transition to spiritual being is not my call - much as I would like it otherwise from time to time. "One" hangs on in quiet desperation - as the Pink Floyd told me decades ago. Is it just the English way?
I don't want to have to worry about feeding a body,clothing it, keeping it warm, or cool...I want to live in the spiritual realm where i can be where I'm needed in a split second..(if thats possible)
Me too. Sometimes I think we may be in both worlds anyway - I am sure our five senses deceive us with the illusion we can sense everything.
* I'm comfortable with the idea of physical death - as a concept. I welcome and look forward to it - as a concept.
But for me, nothing is worth while without love. Love is behind everything I do. Perhaps I put it on a pedestal? Without women to love and do things for I'd probably express love in a garden or my art.
* I don't do alcohol - but I do do other stuff. Nothing illegal - I just found things which can bend the mind which are legal and found out how to prepare them.
April 9, 2009
December 4, 2009
"sheye" wrote: I don't want to have to worry about feeding a body,clothing it, keeping it warm, or cool...I want to live in the spiritual realm where i can be where I'm needed in a split second..(if thats possible)
Thats really a wonderful thing to think about. Don't want to say to much more on that, but its something I like to think about. Being able to act on a moments notice.
“Living backwards!” Alice repeated in great
astonishment. “I never heard of such a thing!”
“—but there’s one great advantage in it, that one’s
memory works both ways.”
— Lewis Carroll, Through the Looking-Glass
No, its twilight zone! Beethovan's 5th would be dot dot dot daaaa , dot dot dot daaaa!
Get the message now?
thats like a musicain writing a song, with lyrics, who feels everyone should listen to the song the way he intended it to be,but once it hits the ears of another,it becomes their song,the way they here it,they way they want to percieve it to be
The Smiling Angel
There was once a smiling angel
on the ancient church of Niema
who has smiled down the ages
but of recent years it seems
her tender smile has vanished
to a somber look of pain
and no one knows the reason
why she never smiles again
is it merely times erosion
that besmears this angels face
or has war and mad corruption
down the ages left its trace
can it be that mans perversion
so distorts this eternal plan
till at last this smiling angel
holds no more her faith in man
(a beautiful poem written in my book by a very lovely young woman who told me she had it in a dream,,please don't ask me to verify that, cause thats a tough one, I believe what people tell me at first, or I try,but often I have been fooled)
(also would like to add that I think man refers to mankind,including both genders,I guess its in the eye and mind of the reader)
I don't do alcohol - but I do do other stuff. Nothing illegal - I just found things which can bend the mind which are legal and found out how to prepare them.
I'm often more fearful of how the "legal" ones can damage me more than
the legal ones,and the lies behind that ball of "medicine".
I think the purest forms of medicines, are still in the traditional roots of healing, and knowedge of herbs,there is name for that kind of medicine .probably many, but I can't think of them.
the "legal" and "illegal" terms used to catagorize Gods creation in healing , as well as mans attempt to grab that knowledge,make a senseless amount of money spinning the wheels of right and wrong
don't even get me started on "legal" and "illegal",especially in the fields of some sciences. 🙄 😕
IF YOU THINK i'M HOSTILE NOW YOU AIN'T SEEN NOTHING YET
bUT THEN AGAIN i'M TESTING SANDRAS THEORY
ITS ALL GONNA LEAD BACK TO LOVE AT SOME POINT
i ALWAYS DID LIKE A GOOD "CHALLENGE"WRAPPED UP IN A CANDY WRAPPER TO MAKE IT SEEM LIKE ITS NOT REALLY A BAD THING
IT WILL ALL LEAD BACK TO THE SAME PLACE
WE ARE ALL ONE
THER IS ONLY LOVE
FUCK YOU AND YOUR STUPID ASS THEORIES
am I allowed to be this hostile in the battle forum?
WHO THE FUCK CARES..ITS THE BATTLE FORUM
THATS WHAT ITS FOR
well that all depends on what your perception of a theory is
WHO THE FUCK CARES
ITS THE BATTLE FORUM
YOU KNOW HOW WE HONORABLR SOLDIERS CAN BE
WE DON'T FUCKING CARE
THE WAR IS ON
the battle is over
BUT THE WAR GOES ON
did someone say love?
then whats this war about?
oh..ok..what are we trying to prove my fighting a battle over love
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK I FIGHT FOR WHATEVER I WANT IF YOU DON'T LIKE SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS
hmmmm..seems a stange way to fight for love
WHO'S YOUR FUCKING COMMANDIMG OFFICER YOU HALF CAST IMBECCILE PEON
I SAID KILL..NOW..OR YOU WILL BE KILLED
fuck you.who made you the boss of me
LOVE..NOW EAT SHYT
that takes care of that half cast peon ..who made him join this army anyhow...have half a mind to LOVE THAT ASSHOLE TO DEATH
(shrugs, oh well, what some nut cases won't do to prove another nutcase wrong)
777 you're so SPAAAAcial
shhhh .I'm on a mission..AND I ALWAYS SEE MY MISSIONS ACCOMPLISHED