February 12, 2019
Hi, I'm new here, so I hope im posting this in the right place and in the right way.
First off let me say I in no way claim to have been abducted and have no proof of contact with anything not from earth. But what I do have is memories as clear as day from when I was around 3 or possibly 4. And I still see what I saw at that age in my memory when lying in bed or pretty much anytime I'm in a dark room. And that memory is lights, and i don't mean house lights, vehicle lights or street lights. I mean lights like the sun shining through a crystal. On a scale so big it's all I could see, and it moves faster than anything I can explain, yet you can still see it all so clearly. Nothing I can say will properly explain what it is I saw/see. Looking all around as a boy and it's all I could see anywhere, no sound to it no one else in observable distances just the light. I see this at least once every few months, sometimes I cant tell if I'm asleep or awake, if im just remembering what I saw. If this happens regularly say 2 or 3 nights straight I suffer with migraines so bad I cant lift my head, and my eye, usually left eye is blood shot for days. I've had medical test and seen all sorts of doctors and I'm as healthy as could be.
I've asked elder family members if I spoke about this as a child, and feel as if they are keeping something from me. One member of my family beleives its trauma from the surgery I had as a young boy and possibly I woke up and saw the lights shining down in the operating theater. And was so terrified it just got hard wired into my brain.
I must also add that I am a fully healthy man, no physical or mental disabilities and live a very full life with a wonderful family, I'm just looking for answers or the possibility that anyone else has experienced anything similar.
February 2, 2018
J, hello, I noticed a couple similarities in your encounter to my own. Namely, the left eye. I was shot with a laser type squiggle in my left eye as well.
Also, I have never claimed to know, who or what is doing it,as I can never recall anything that transpired during the encounter. So far all theories are possible, god, aliens, who knows?
All I do know, is that there are too many of us reporting this, for it to be nothing.:-)
I just keep digging for answers, and really it's all we can do, in my opinion.:-)
It's better to walk alone, than with a crowd going in the wrong direction. H.S.
August 28, 2014
Flashbacks from childhood are hard to deal with when you have no control of when where or how you encounter them.
I believe that without help, I would have never been able to get threw to finding there root cause in my case. They came to me in fragmented flash's of disjointed memories. But - experiencing them as a child only gave me only that view point.
Learning to stand back and observe it like a movie...
The pain, The frighting events experienced as a child with that view point became something that I was able to then deal with as an adult.
Believe me you can get to the other side of coming to grips with it.
But many of us have to get help.
I thought I had a good grip on things. But, it became a safety issue.
The flashbacks would hit me at the drop of a hat.
I traveled professionally as a computer field engineer driving daily 25 to 300 miles for customer repairs at their work-site. It started hitting me driving. I could no longer think that "I should just suck it up" and deal with it myself.
My friend was a preacher at church worked with me. It helped. They stopped.
Dealing with abduction flashbacks much later in life I was helped by MUFON.
Letting go is part of the process.
Weather it is just selecting to ask for help.
Or acknowledging that,
We in some situations are just there for the ride(experience).
We don't have control.
I came to the conclusion that it maybe just on how we choose to handle ourselves.
Integrity and a commitment to doing everything within our grasp is all that we can be expected to do. Sometimes all we can do it cry. Sometimes all we have is a good word. Sometimes we can only take one small right action.
I think breaking it into small bits. Choosing one next right step at a time makes things more bearable. Thinking that we have to make a one grand step in dealing with it can lead us to error. Take a step and look around perceptions change. What seemed the truth later with perspective leads you to new truths.
Well, God Bless...
I hope this is helpful
January 22, 2019
After reading a post like the OP-post, I feel like an awful type of man to such an appearance. Not in the least place because I would not be awful, because if I could, wouldn't it be better to take it easy first? And also after that?
I don't know. Maybe things will play out against each other.
Do you see any changes after this thread so far?
This should have some impact.
April 14, 2019
I would write more but with only one post and no replies I have to assume this is a hit and run.
The reply should be that if you ever return as a true experiencer would do each day as the event is so seered into memory and the question burnig with desire you could do no less.
The real question becomes have you also discussed the issues with surgery? Perhaps the number of medical issues/conditions you are dealing with? This all paves the way to an answer but simply assuming everyone was abducted is the WRONG APPROACH to all the posts involving this phenomenon.
Be adult, be proactive and the hint of surgery should cause you to probe a bit deeper. Speaking of probing......