Why me? I continue to experience hardship after hardships and for many yrs I have asked myself why do I have to suffer and deal with things in life that can be so unpleasant. Many times it seems like my life has 'fallen' apart, I get down on myself, end up for moments being consumed by guilt, fear, anxiety of who I am, and self pity for lifes situations, but as my awareness grows I'm learning to maintain something that defeats all of that, service to creation, service to cocreation and a foundation that doesn't 'crumble'.
Ive come to start learning that when my life feels like its falling apart, I'm only shedding another layer of my ego driven 'self service mode'. This sounds so simple, but to maintain this thought process is evergoing, when I am in service to others and creation, my life is good, but it is easy to fall out of and start living only for myself.
I go indepth contemplating this because I believe many people end up beating themselves up over things they are not entirely in control of, there are natural laws of the truth, that cannot be destroyed within us or outside of ourselves yet our perceptions soemtimes have us thinking that we are victims of the world, when we are often times the persecutor. It is easy for us to forget about free will, free will of what our thoughts create for us, I'm starting to believe pain and suffering are more of an illusion than I had ever known before. That in my life I will experience heaven and hell, and more than once. well thats my thought on the day anyways.