by bionic » Tue Sep 27, 2011 10:08 am
okay..the reason I posted that was because I have had two big car accidents in my life..that I maybe, should not have survived through..I felt protected both times
The first one when I was 22..I was in a head on collision with a car that turned out from another street in front of me..I slammed into the side of them. Totalled my car.
Luckily, I had my seat belt on..it probably saved me, at least some serious injury..unluckily, I did not have the shoulder strap on. My face slammed into the stearing wheel..I remember the impact..slow motion..I also felt the seatbelt tug me back as I was impacting..it knocked me out for a few moments..my nose got broke..I remember waking up wondering if iIwas alive or dead for a moment. And jollily realizing I WAS alive.
The second one happened when I was about 26..I was on a ice covered highway and a racoon ran in front of me..this was in the dead of winter, NY state. Stupdily, I slammed on my brakes..worrying for the fing racoon..hit it anyway and went spinning..across the highway..across the medium and into the traffic coming the other way. All in slow motion, felt like a thrill ride. When my car stopped I looked up, my car was facing the oncoming traffic , a cluster of cars, heading my way..on ice covered road..my car was stalled ..a sort of voice in my head said calmly to start my car and drive across the road..this was happening in slow motion for me..my car started , I got out of the way of the traffic just in time..as soon as I was at the side of the road my car died and would not start up again. One of the cars I would have hit pulled over to check on me. It was a young couple..they were all excited and freaked. Knew wea ll came close to a horrific scene. I had a weird calm feeling.They could not believe how calm I was. They gave me a ride home.
I have had so many near misses..I have realized I am protected (for now, at least)
I don't like driving much myslef, believe it or not.
I feel silly about it and force myself. To keep me feeling okay about it I remind myself Barbara Walters, world famous journalist, she is afraid to drive.
“Whether you sniff it smoke it eat it or shove it up your ass the result is the same: addiction.”
― William S. Burroughs
(love&forgive yourself..and everyone else)