I feel you. Makes a lot of sense.
On the flip side of escaping, as odd as this will sound, a grounded and sober state is a way to escape from that which feels incredibly surreal, perhaps like the hallucinations you don't care for. Escape from the Twilight Zone which in my experience is quite real. I am fortunate and my hallucinations never were of super scary things or voices ordering me to do wrong. Just things like crystals growing out of stars at night or a configuration of lights suddenly "becoming" an eerie wolf that I could somehow communicate with. Some of this is on chemicals but a lot of it still happens to me when I'm sober. Actually, all I need to have a really awesome trip is to go without sleep for at least 24 hours but 36 and 48 are even more intense.
I haven't gone on a sleep-dep.-induced vision quest for a few months though. I always keep a writing implement when I go places in my mind, last time what I got was "I'm currently exploring free agency" and "don't throw it away."
Put those two together and, voila, I am undergoing a major life-change right now. In less than an hour, I will be on a plane for Minnesota. This time tomorrow, I will be writing from a new ip address
It was like a puzzle. I had to figure out what exploring free agency meant as it's kinda got the flavor or aroma of a horoscope advice but my subconscious mind knew I would eventually understand that it meant leaving my chronically unfaithful wife. And "don't throw it away" could have meant two things, at least, don't throw my marriage away or don't throw away this "new" opportunity I had in Minnesota. I realized that I could force it to mean what I want it to mean but the more natural interpretation for me is to not throw away the new opportunity which is shaping up to be more than just one relationship. A lot more, in fact. I'm coming off three years of near total isolation and am relatively reintegrating back into society.
It's quite a relief and I think my life with her has been like living on Jupiter, harsh conditions and intense gravity. After that, living in a place where gravity is just naturally weaker means that I'm stronger than I would have been had I lived on Earth the whole time.
I am fascinated by where I can go in my mind under the right circumstances and feel I have barely scratched the surface. You're bringing out a rambly side to me