by Asura » Wed Jul 01, 2009 12:21 pm
My family origins and geneology aside, my interest really started when I was about...11, maybe 12 years old. I was flicking through channels, and, having become disinterested in what was currently being shown on Cartoon Network, I wound up on the History Channel. It was then I saw my first episode of an old series called Mysteries of the Bible.
I was immediately captivated by it. But there was something more than it just being engaging, and considering how young I was, I suppose some would say I'm bizzare for loving it so much, because the episode was about the Apocalypse. I discussed the show with my dad afterwards, and from there, saturday flowed into sunday, and then the next day I also saw my first full episode of Sightings.
I can't explain it fully now due to time constraints, attention spans, and thousands of thoughts flooding my mind right now all at once, but even though I was a pretty bright kid, I felt something click. From then on, though I would go through periods where I would have to stay away from the subjects because I would get intense nightmares about bizarre things happening to me and my family, I spent my life studying and comparing religion, spirituality, ufos, demons, djinns, mythology, esp, prophecy, nazism, comic books, inner light, dream travelling and so much beyond it that I started to see holes and connections in between all of them. it was all so interconnected. I had to study it more. I had to do something more with it.
So over the past few years, I've been working on a project that, if all goes right, will be something outstanding, to say the least. I don't care if it or i become famous for it, cause I don't even want that, I just want the people that it reaches to get something out of it. It's hard to describe, and would take a lot more to explain it more efficiently, but, despite the fact that I also suffer from rather low self esteem due to my depression, I also know that if I can do this, I will have accomplished part of what I'm supposed to do with my life.
The other part, well, quite frankly I'm afraid of it, and yet I wait very eagerly for the day it'll come, for when it does, I feel like I'll finally have some use in this world.