at1with0 wrote:sandra wrote:People that are around you, people here, people in your home life, people who have been in your life.
..which wouldn't be very many. It seems as though you think I should be carrying people. Been there, done that. Where did that get me?? The best way to carry people is to let them carry themselves. Who carried me?What do you think they think of you....let me tell you because I already know.
Why should I care?You cannot know all the things you do and play dumb. People know, they are aware
of your awareness whether you understand that or not, and they know where their awareness fits into that, that often times you are aware of more informations. You thinking little of yourself is not taking responsibility for your informations, guess what that gives them...
Why is it so much about them? About what I can do for other people? What about me working on me for the moment? Lawd knows I need a lot of improvement. I certainly don't feel like some kind of oracle for people. Who would I be dispensing this information to anyway? I can think of one person who might be partially receptive. That's it.It does not give them hope, it does not give them love, it does not give them peace,
it does not give them compassion.
Why is it up to me to give people these things? Are you assuming that my true nature is all touchy feely airy fairy pink cloud sort of thing? Have you not been paying attention?? Hey, it would be nice to accumulate wisdom if that were even possible and dispense it to people like a guru but like I said I've been there and done that and it's gotten me right here right now with you trying to tell me what I ought to be doing with my life and, sister, I don't let anyone else define for me what I am or what I should be doing. If I did, I'm shore there's a horde of people who think I ought to do different, and I would lose my will to live in trying to live up to other people's standards, like yours. Maybe I'm a lost cause you're wasting your time with. I do find it curious though, and there's more of course. Much more, in fact.
Give someone drugs for a month, I like that. It has happened, as you might know.
Not exactly nice, no, but it's who I was at the time.
Opened up the flood gates.
And who is it that you think I am, some fairy sissy a**,
I'm built tough like ford baby.