Yes. It's like an insidious infection of reason which is the liberation of soul. My focus determines my reality, as cliché as that might sound. Have you ever had the strong conviction that what's behind the stage is what's real? You're behind the stage I perceive at the moment, for the moment, and you will come back on stage and I'll interpret that event as reading the next post. It's all smoke and mirrors. I know I'm probably misinterpreting this but in QM, from what I understand, nothing exists until it is perceived. For me, it sometimes feels like an act of creation when I perceive something.
With each new perception an act of creation.
Now understand that is part of prayer.
That is part of perceptions we attatch to others around us.
With alot of grace we are given the ability to form and to reshape.
Perceptions again determine physical, emotional, spiritual, etc experiences.
Not only for ourselves but for all others, noticeably ones closest to us.
How much of an ability does Gods spirit have to change our creations?
How close have we drawn to Love is how far we can draw.
Here is where you are at:
You have said if you had something you would keep it.
You were telling the truth.
Because you have been sitting with a full cup.
You don't start emptying the cup and suffering comes from selfishness.
Going through phases of losing yourself is to not only find yourself again,
but to find that you have a part of everyone, of everything, that the
new creation you've become is lively, always changing and growing,
and within all things capable and currently perceived and known to you.
Meaning, you have right now, everything you ever wanted.
You have to give up some of the fear in knowing it.
And the people around you, are depending on it.
You made it man, now cut yourself some slack.
To hold back because of being hurt and to keep your differences to yourself
is a very outdated outlook for you- that has no no no need - the cause
and effects are far beyond working with the same past bs.
There is nothing that you could now share,
that isn't going to be jam packed in life giving.
We have been working on things for quite some time and for
damnit you have got to get back to that. As time has gone on
I'm aware that it appears everything is hung out, and we both
know that is not the entire case. Do not assume that I do not
know where you have been and what you have gone through.
When you go through hell, and everyone is a part of you,
how in the hell are they suppose to respond to you, to understand
you, to accept you, or embrace you. It is an unbelievably ridiculous
expectation that we expect others to understand us at times.
Be the understanding one. Know that you are already acknowledged.
That its ok to forget about yourself to care for others and know that
you are caring for yourself. And that after being to hell and back
and taking everyone around you with, the rewards that come which is
joy love peace happiness etc etc etc etc that build and build and
form new creations out of your experiences and life will be given first
to you but to all others as well. I am pushing you because
you've been lazy in what you are capable of, only because I love you,
and I love myself, and I think about the people in your life, in mine,
and just in the world in general. You don't need to concern yourself
with rejection any longer. Those things will scatter at the glimpse of
what you can share. I am moving in a furniture set today so I have some
work to do around here.
If anyone in my life appears in-sane its me. I jump from world to world
and realm to realm on a constant.