sheye wrote:Not sure what you mean by that statement mael,because i really don't think my problem is loniless, i think its just sadness ,mixed in with alot of other emotions, over a lot of differnet things that I'm trying to sort out.
* Something like the Sword of Damacles - type scenario. ie - Everything looks all right, but disaster is an unpredictable moment away at the best of times and the whole lot goes feet-up with any wrong moves. - A balancing act with a dark abbys on either side. - If I want to make an argument and mess things up I could do it in any number of easy ways. - Especially if I was drinking.
I know that sounds like a mixed up woman kind of thing to say,but i don't even understand it myself. It seems like such a crazy mixed up world, with a lot of stress building up on so many people for so many different reasons....and quite frankly at times I just want out.
* I'm right with you there. And I have once made a serious effort in that department. I am now comfortable with the idea that the timing of my transition to spiritual being is not my call - much as I would like it otherwise from time to time. "One" hangs on in quiet desperation - as the Pink Floyd told me decades ago. Is it just the English way?
[/quote][/quote]I don't want to have to worry about feeding a body,clothing it, keeping it warm, or cool...I want to live in the spiritual realm where i can be where I'm needed in a split second..(if thats possible)
Me too. Sometimes I think we may be in both worlds anyway - I am sure our five senses deceive us with the illusion we can sense everything.
* I'm comfortable with the idea of physical death - as a concept. I welcome and look forward to it - as a concept.
But for me, nothing is worth while without love. Love is behind everything I do. Perhaps I put it on a pedestal? Without women to love and do things for I'd probably express love in a garden or my art.
* I don't do alcohol - but I do do other stuff. Nothing illegal - I just found things which can bend the mind which are legal and found out how to prepare them.