You know, as hard as I try, I guarantee you I can't make myself believe in the Tooth Fairy. I could read 500 books about the Tooth Fairy and still, it would require a miracle for me to believe.
He hasn't accepted you yet. That doens't mean He never will.
What about all those who die an atheist for lack of any sign of god being real? I thought it was our job to accept him, not the other way around?
And I'm not even going to go into why science is credible and religion is not. Evidence in short, you can say what you like about it not being evidence, but evidence.